Johnny Manziel gives first interview in two years: ‘I was self-medicating with alcohol’

Johnny Football is finally ready to talk.

After limiting his public comments during his attempted comeback, quarterback Johnny Manziel has given an interview to ABC’s Good Morning America that will be broadcast on Monday. It’s his first sit-down interview in more than two years.

The interview was teased on Twitter on Sunday night and featured a clip from the interview.

Here’s the quote from Manziel:

“I was self-medicating with alcohol. That’s what I thought was making me happy, helping me get out that desperation to the point of where I felt that I had some sense of happiness. But at the end of the day, when you wake up the next day after a night like that, or after going on a trip like that, and you wake up the next day and that’s all gone and that liquid courage and that sense of euphoria that’s over you is all gone and you’re left staring at the ceiling by yourself and you’re back in that depression and back in that hole, that dark hole of sitting in a room by yourself being super depressed, thinking about all the mistakes you’ve made in your life. What did that get me? What did that get me except out of the NFL? Where did that get me, disgraced?”

Manziel’s party lifestyle is well documented and in June 2016, Manziel’s father Paul, told ESPN that his son was struggling with drugs.

“It’s not a secret that he’s a druggie. Hopefully, he doesn’t die before he comes to his senses. I mean, I hate to say it, but I hope he goes to jail. I mean, that would be the best place for him. I’m doing my job, and I’m going to move on. If I have to bury him, I’ll bury him.”

Manziel was charged with domestic assault in April of 2016 and the victim, then-girlfriend Colleen Crowley, said in court documents that Manziel struck her so hard that she temporarily lost hearing in one ear and that he threatened to kill her. Manziel faced a year in jail but the domestic assault charge was dismissed last November when he successfully completed requirements of a court agreement that included taking an anger management course and participating in the NFL’s substance-abuse program.

Crowley said in a recent interview that she didn’t think Manziel had changed.

“At first, I felt that I needed an apology to help me process the assault. When it wasn’t forthcoming, and I had more time to process his destructive nature, I realized that he needed the remorse in order to heal,” Crowley said. “He won’t change due to his denial of the events, his DNA, and the enablers he surrounds himself with. Me? I’m stronger now.”

CFL commissioner Randy Ambrosie initially said Manziel couldn’t enter the league last season but would be permitted to play in 2018 if he met certain, unspecified conditions. They gave him the green light in December and negotiations are ongoing between Manziel’s camp and the Ticats, who own his CFL rights.